We are spooning and I am trying very, very, hard to stay still. It's the first time our bodies have been against each other. The electricity could light whole cities. My body feels like jumping up and down, or think of Charlie. "I've got a golden ticket. I'VE GOT A GOLDEN TICKET." Breathing is complicated, like algebra 2, or why we do the things we do. Only 30 seconds have gone by, this is worse than holding breathe under water. I want to say so many things and no thing. I feel everything.